Life is so full of moments in time. Some of these moments are good some not so good. There are moments in time that cause your heart to skip a beat or a smile to appear on your face and then there are some that make your heart heavy and make you cry. I have so many of these different moments in my life and I absolutely love it when they happen because it means that I am alive and well. It is so important that people allow these moments in time to happen in their lives by paying attention to every day things in your life. Being grateful for the people and moments in your lives.
I am sure that some people think that because I am such an outspoken liberal democrat woman or that I am an advocate for what I absolutely believe in and don't believe in that I must have a miserable life and just because I feel that the Republican party is ruining this country and tell it like I feel it is...Well that just ain't so and it certainly ain't true! My life is so full of love and laughter that sometimes it is unreal to me how I could be living the life I have. It is a life full of blessings and love.
I have a wife that loves me and tells me so not only in words but in actions. We have each other's backs no matter what. We know each other through and through. We communicate our thoughts and feelings with each other and/or about each other. We have what we call "swing talks". This is where we get together and speak up when something is on our minds about something. It is our "safe place" where no harsh words or judgements can be spoken not that we ever speak harshly to one another because we never have and I can't see that ever happening. My life is so much more blessed with her in it. We have so many wonderful moments in time together good and bad.
I have a mother in law who lives with us that has severe Alzheimer disease. There are times when she is in her manic Alzheimer's mode where no one can talk to her. These are the moments in time when Kathy and I are totally in sync with one another and together we get through it. There are also the times when Mutti is in a pleasant mood. These are the moments in time when she will look at me after saying something witty and smile that smile of hers and my heart just melts with her glow. No matter what moment in time that we experience with her I Love Her and deep down she probably knows it. Even though there are those moments in time that she doesn't know who I am I still know who she is and that is all that matters.
Our two dogs Torrie and Buddy always give me moments in time like nothing else in my life. Our oldest dog Torrie has a kinship with my mother in law Mutti in that she has doggie Alzheimer's disease. We even looked it up online and she has all the symptoms. My humorous moments in time with Torrie are when Mutti pets her and says to her we are the same you and me. It puts a smile on my face. Now Buddy gives me so many hilarious moments in time. He has brought laughter and wonderment to our lives. This little fella was/is a gift to us. He chose us on Christmas morning as his family by sleeping in the corner of our porch on the bed that I made for him and eating the food that I left for him. He has been our blessing and the best moments in time that we both could ever want or need in our lives.
My life is blessed with really great friends that I can count on if something happens or if I need some help. There are moments in time when Kathy and I will go out to eat with friends I find myself sitting quietly and looking at each one of their faces and watch them smile and listen to them talk and laugh...my heart lifts and I smile and thank God for them being in my life. The same goes for my family members. Kathy's two kids Andrew, Aury ~Andrews wife and Ashley. I enjoy the moments in time of being around them. I especially love the two sibs Andrew and Ashley having their tit for tat conversations that they share when ever those two are together. I love the way Aury's face lights up when she smiles her beautiful smile. It just fills my heart with joy.
I enjoy the moments of time with Kathy's sibs. Barb and her warm hugs lift my spirits. Ralph and his curmudgeon ways. Lee and her family makes me smile. My Aunt Shirley she is the mother of my heart and I am so blessed to have her love and support while I am going through the moments of time without my Mom in my life right now.
Now there are moments in time that aren't the greatest and yes I still have some issues that aren't good but all in all my life is good and I am very blessed to have the life I have. I still have moments in time when I long for a relationship with my mother and I miss her very much and my heart is heavy from the loss. There are moments in time when we have money problems just like other people. But as long as I keep having those moments in time that make my heart skip a beat or flutter with excitement all is well.
There are moments in time at work when I see a cute little baby come into the operating room with curly hair and a sweetness that lifts my soul. Of course we also have the crying babies that make me sad and hurt for them. But all in all my moments in time at work are good and I am very grateful to have my work when so many don't. I love the people I work with. Sometimes I will sit and watch them in the lounge tell funny stories and I think these are the moments in time that are fantastic to me. There is much laughter and joking around with people that you care about and that care about you that makes it somewhat bearable.
My very first AA sponsor would always say to me "Jill as long as I wake up on this side of the daisies life is good." Everyone should find and be open to those moments in time that make your heart lift up and feel grateful to be alive and grateful for your life.
These are my moments in time and
These are my thoughts and feelings in Jillsville.
