This morning as I was looking out of my studio window I saw the beauty of the clouds the trees and nature outside of the window. For some folks if they were to look out of this same window they would see the darkness of the clouds instead of the light coming through the clouds, they would see the brown on some of the leaves instead of the green with the light coming through them, and as far as the nature outside they would say shut those damn birds up!
I see beauty and contentment in the eyes of my critters. The sad part is in some critters I see the pain and the anguish in their eyes. But at the same time I can also see hope in their eyes when their's meet with mine.
Life is full of twists and turns. Kathys mom Nancy, whom I affectionately call Mutti (Mommy in German), is going through a lot of twists and turns as are we while we journey through this Alzheimer's disease with her. There are times when she is smiling, talking(babbling), holding our hands. Then comes the twist and turn when there are no smiles, only yelling, don't forget holding hands. But one thing is constant the love that I see in her eyes no matter what her outside is doing.
Kathy and I have a beautiful relationship I feel in my heart. One reason is that we see the beauty in each other on the inside as well the out. The keys to our relationship in my mind and in my heart are that we love each other number one, number two, we communicate our needs with one another in a calm way, we call this our swing talks. I see many of my friends that don't have this in their relationship and it causes such turmoil.
I have the one friend that when she finishes talking with you she says "angels all around." That's pretty much how I live my life today with angels all around.
These are my thoughts and feelings from Jillsville.
